Friends are mankind's essential need in life for no doubt. I have been always asking myself how many friends I have. Honestly, besides a group of primary and secondary school friends, I have only befriended with some JPA scholars and least to be mentioned, some members of National Service, who I had lost contact with. Making new friends would be an easy task for many people, but it's a 3 x NO for me. I seldom engage myself in social activities, and never take initiatives to know the people around me. Moreover, I am a quiet person in front of strangers or my buddies' friends, especially GIRLS. Such a loser am I =.=
Sometimes I will feel a sense of loneliness sitting in front of my lappy. My facebook and MSN have been in silent mode for quite a long time. Perhaps, I am a dull man whom everyone would neglect. Perhaps, I don't have good communication skills and could never keep a conversation longer than 10 minutes? or 5 minutes. Sometimes, I would even find myself hard to participate in Mgroup conversation, or feeling myself being a less important member in the group. I really can't figure out who I am actually.
Maybe throughout this post I will be an object of laughter or piteous to some people - "There goes Au Wei Ren, haha / tsktsktsk..." But this is actually how I express my feeling, through some writing. And this is who am I. Am just hoping that I can find a better solution for a better future.
